This summer has been fun. It’s my last one at home so I tried to enjoy the moments with friends and family. I’ve grown this summer as a Christian, learning what it feels like to truly worship God. I’ve learned to trust in God. Going off to college is a big step in life, you almost feel alone. It’s your first step out into the world on your own. I’ve had to cling to God in my decision making and He gives my heart peace to know that He’s going to lead me where He wants me to be.
This summer I have grown as a young woman. I have learned to do things more independently. I have been preparing to live on my own. I have had to learn how to take care of myself without mom and dad. Growing up is a strange feeling but I think it helps you grow into a person of your highest potential.
This summer I have seemed to learn over and over who your true friends are. People change, and it sucks. At the end of the day, the people who stick by you and are there for you are the ones that matter. People change. That’s a hard thing for me to deal with. Not only do they change, they hurt you with that change and sometimes betray you. One of the worst feelings in the world is thinking that someone cared for you for so long and realizing they honestly didn’t value your friendship together. Their true colors shine brighter than ever. But I think about it this way, why would you want a friend like that? Someone in your life who won’t be there for you? No, you don’t want or need that in your life. So let them go. I’ve learned to realize that people go on, without you and that’s perfectly okay. Just remember if they are meant to be in your life they will be in it.
This summer I have dealt with tragedy and sadness. It’s been a rough summer for the town I live in and also for my family. We lost a friend in a car wreck. He was the type of person who affected so many people and even if you didn’t know him that well his death was a heartbreak for everyone around you. I have spent a great amount of time with my family this summer. They are the ones that matter to me the most. They are the people I’d want to spend my last days on this earth with. I cherish the memories I have with them. My grandfather has cancer and we have been trying to see him as much as possible. It’s been so hard to see him suffer and to see my family watch. One of the worst feelings in the world. I am honestly thankful to be going off to college, it’s too hard to deal with that.
This summer I have spend countless hours shopping for college and planning for college. It is way harder to go to college then I realized. There is so much to do, so many things to buy. It’s overwhelming to say the least. I have mixed emotions about leaving home. I’m not going far away from home luckily, but I will still miss my wonderful city and the people in it. I will miss the place I have called home my whole life. It’s almost surreal that I am leaving in 10 days. I can’t even fathom that! It makes me excited yet sad. Very bitter sweet.
This summer I have l been hurt by a few boys, but I’ve also found a summer crush. The beginning of summer was a little hard, dealing with past drama, but recently I have met someone amazing, who really shows me what it feels like to be treated the right way. It’s a great way to end my summer here at home. I have the best time with him. I ask myself all the time why did you have to meet him now? Right when you are about to leave? But I guess there was a reason for the timing. I guess if something is meant to be with us it will happen one day. I am learning not to worry so much about that stuff, just let it be and let what’s meant to happen happen. But I am so happy and thankful, great way to end the summer :)
It’s safe to say this summer has taught me so much and so many important lessons that I am going to use and need in my new chapter of life in college. I can’t wait to see what God has in store for me this year. Hopefully next summer I can look back on these lessons and memories from this summer and say I have grown even more. <3